3/5/2022
hi-a-tus
~a pause or a gap in a sequence, series, or progress.
I've been thinking about this word lately, and how much it can impact anyone's everyday life. I am beginning to slowly cut out the bad habits in my life, and focus on the good ones. Good habits, good headspaces, and even better times for myself to reflect and move forward from things that no longer serve me. It has been quite a challenge. Over the last few months my consistency was all over the place, and literally everything in my life was fluctuating. I wanted it to stay still so bad, that I pushed until I turned whatever I needed into a habit, then turned around and over rewarded myself for those things. I eventually landing back at square one. No foundation. No routine to go back to. No plan. So I needed a pause to re-evaluate my patterns, and what has helped me in the past. Trying not to over do it, and cause a burnout. But pacing myself consistently in small intervals until I get to a goal. A goal that is plausible, and reachable for myself makes it much more fun.
I try not to let this feeling of taking a pause overcome me, dictate where it wants me to go, or cause me to stop anything completely. I need to organize my thought patterns, and give myself grace as I do so, or else my mind will shatter on its self, and leave me feeling burned out and more stressed than I started. Remember why you started this journey. Remember where it will lead you if you continue to make small steps toward it. Remember the feeling of relief you get when it is accomplished. Never let go of that feeling. It is, and will always be inside of you. So fight for it everyday. If you do that, you've already won.
